Amusing yet serious

So today I decided to wear my "gay? fine by me" t-shirt when i was out with my mom. Well, that opened a nice can of worms. Besides commenting on how the shirt was too thin and tight on me (that's a first), she said to me, "I don't know if this means you're gay or you're fine with other people being gay."

Rock. Me. Hard place.

I'm not really defining myself with any social terms. In fact, I haven't really actually come out to myself. I just can't classify myself. I don't even fit in normal gender boundaries, not to mention sexual boundaries. It's just, what with dealing with everything else this year, determining whether I was gay or not kind of took a back seat. I really do need to figure it out, though.

I kind of dismissed my mom's question by saying that everyone else at school had one of those shirts (which is pretty true), and it worked. But I asked her what she would think if I was gay. She told me that as long as I was happy and healthy, she would adjust. I was oddly comforted by this fact. I didn't think she would be so accepting. But I'm glad to know this.