Okay, sorry for another pathetic post, but there isn't much to post when things are actually going well. I finished one paper today that is getting turned in on Monday, then I have one more paper and one exam on Thursday and that's it. My junior year will be over. I won't be back at school for 7 months.
There's a lot of weird emotions going on right now. It's weird feeling better, because there's no longer a burden, something to fixate on. It's this "what now" feeling, trying to figure out what to do with the rest of your mind. Once this becomes more normal, I'll feel more normal, but I still feel kind of out of sorts.
Summer's coming and hopefully that will give me time to make sense of this year. Just to recap this disastrous year:
First day of classes- My grandmother passed away
Late Sept.-I begin to feel depressed
Mid-Oct.- I crash for the first time, doctor contemplates sending me home
November- Diagnosed with bipolar disorder
December-on 6 medications at this time
January- 3 episodes while in Vietnam
February-new medicine, begin to slightly unspool
April-Psychotic episode, sent home on temp. medical leave (left on Wed. , returned on Mon)
May-finally beginning to balance out
Now the positives:
-Met C, one of the greatest people ever
-Realized how much people care about me
-Went to Vietnam
-Went to Boston
-Went to Atlanta
-Accepted to Student Congress in KY
-Finished the year alive
As C told me, "You were in hell. This was hell." It certainly was. But I made it. Not many people in the same situation do; in fact, very few people are in the same situation. May next year be better, because it sure can't get any worse!
Next, off to England!
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ENGLAND???
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